I Lied To Me Too

My mom got the phone that I wanted 5 months ago but she wouldn't freaking allow me to get.

I'm not bitter.

I bought a candle yesterday for my room. I used to light candles all the time, but it may have just been a phase that passed. Same with incense, though that was a longer, angsty-teen, I'm-cool-because-I-light-incense phase. But I do enjoy a good patuli or nag champa scent in my room. Or sandelwood and rose. mmm.

I made a carrot cake from scratch a few days ago and it was absolutely amazing. I think I'm going to have to make another one soon because it's almost gone due to having family over during the course of the weekend.

I have a paper to write that's due tomorrow night. I need to find an article to write about. Then I have to write a censorship rationale for next week at some point. I also need to figure out how to write a rationale.

Later days.

Song of the Day: "Everyone" by Uh Huh Her

Film of the Day: An Education (2009). This is in a cheap theatre on the other side of town right now. I think I'm going to go see it today at some point. I haven't seen a movie in theatres for weeks. Weird.

Also, in case you haven't figured it out, the titles for my blogs are alway just lines from whatever song I'm listening to when I finish and title each post, not necessarily the same song that is the song of the day.

Bombs Away

I got a letter from Tyler today. Half Spanish, half English.

Good times.

I told my parents that if I didn't have to worry about paying off student loans once I stopped, that I would easily drop out of school and move to England. My step dad said he'd pay for my plane ticket if I actually did it.

It's a last resort strategy, but I won't forget it.

I'm having to read a horror book right now for YA Lit. So my partner and I chose a book with a scary looking cover about a kid that hunts witches or something. We don't even know, we just liked the idea of the large print.

:]

I have a new sketchbook, but I don't know what to do with it. I mean, obviously I'll draw in it, but it's like getting a new journal: you don't want to ruin the newness of it, you know?

I hate looking for a job. The whole process just kind of sucks.

I didn't really have anything in particular to write about today, so...

later days.

Song of the Day: "Gaia Bleeds (Make Way For Man)" by Set Your Goals. I'm in a hardcore/screamo mood today.

Things to look forward to this week:

-Spanish Test (I know, I'm weird, but I really do love that language. And tests for me in that class are super easy, which is a real self-esteem booster)

-Family visiting on Thursday

-finishing the second season of True Blood

-work on Thursday (best part of my week! I love teaching the 4 kids that are in my class, they are so awesome)

-getting back to ceramics (I haven't thrown anything for 3 weeks. And I've already pre-ordered two 25 lb. bags of clay, so I need to get on it.)

-making pancakes for breakfast in about 5 minutes

I really need a good night's sleep though.

And I have a pretty big article assessment thing due for my YA Lit class next week that I need to get started on.

And college apps that I haven't started yet.

The idea of them scares the crap out of me.

Mmk, I'm off to make breakfast for everyone.

Later days.

Nothing and Everything

Skins. My new favorite thing.

Until I watched episode 7 yesterday, now I'm just upset and a little confused. I'm also bummed about another generation of the show, therefore change of cast. I really liked these last two seasons and everyone in them. But oh well. I'll get over it.

Spring break went by fast. It was uneventful and full of, well...sleep, movies, and tumblr. I can't yet decide whether or not I'm regretting this past week. Probably not.

My aunt, Heather (of whom I'm named after, middle name wise), and my cousin, Caleb (the "actor" of the family. I'm not sure why that's in quotations, he really has been in a lot of commercials and played a younger version of that one guy from Avatar in some Paris Hilton movie. He was also the young Jason in the director's cut version of the last Friday the 13th movie. But I digress), are coming up to St. George from Burbank this next Thursday or Friday for the weekend, along with my other aunt, Nicole, and my newest cousin, Bella. And by newest cousin, I mean newest first cousin, since my cousin Kirstin just had a baby boy, Trevor, not too long ago. I'm not sure what he's technically called, but I call him my cousin too, just to keep it simple, considering how many people are in my family.

I feel like this is going to get even more boring than it already is if I don't stop now.

Later days.

Song of the Day: "The Brightest Green" by Anarbor

Film of the Day: The Runaways (2010). Comes out next week in the US, but limited. Which means I'll get to see it when it comes out everywhere in April. I've been extremely excited to see this film for some time now, and it's gotten pretty good reviews so far. And apparently Kristen Stewart does all her own singing in it, which is cool, because she's not bad at the whole rock 'n roll girl band thing as far as I can tell after seeing a couple clips of the movie. Anyway, it looks good, and I look forward to it.

There You Go With Hope Again

I know I've put this picture of Tyler up before, but I've been missing him a lot lately :/

So deal with it.

I've become addicted to tumblr.

Not really, but I'm on it more than anything else lately.

The migraine I woke up with this morning is gradually working its way out of my head now, though I can feel a migraine hangover coming on.

Jenna (Tyler's older sister, and basically my sister) is graduating from Ventura College in May, so I'll be heading down to California the end of that month for that. VC is just a junior college, but Jenna has been going there for like, 4 years now haha, so it's a pretty awesome thing for her to be graduating considering her past struggles with the educational system. I'm very proud of her. I hope she continues to reach for her full potential as a student in the future.

As for my current battles with education, I'm still a little bit weary as to what will be happening to me in terms of college for this coming Fall. I won't know anything for sure until I get either an acceptance or denial letter from the two schools I'm applying to in June at some point.

I want to link to Kayley's blog here, because I really liked what she had to say in it.

I've recently realized that I'm not writing for anyone in particular except for me, and I should always remember that. If you want to read what I write, then I thank you very much, from the bottom of my heart.

Same with watching my videos. The fact that I only have 16 subscribers isn't going to stop me from making vlogs and videos and singin' silly songs that will only be viewed 35 times. The only thing that matters is that I enjoy it.

Three cheers for optimism!

Things I'm looking forward to in the near future:

-Fantastic Mr. Fox coming out on video next Tuesday

-Getting my ALL CAPS stuff after the 28th

-Getting my John Green "pizza" shirt

-making some bad ass pottery next week, including, but not limited to: tea pots, bowl sets, plate sets, cookie jars

Later days.

Song of the Day: "Around Your Neck" by Annuals

Film of the Day: City of Ember (2008). I rented this last night for my brothers and I to watch because Mikie had just read the book and wanted to see the film. He said the movie was okay but the book was way better. I own the book, I've just yet to read it.

We Should Become More Adventurous

I don't go on the computer as much as I generally used to.

This is a good thing, definitely. Maybe my excess internet use has been a phase that's starting to wear down.

I don't have anything to write. Basically, life this week will consist of reading a boring young adult romance novel and finding some scholarly articles for my literature class.

And starting two college applications. Ugh. I hate college applications. One is due May 1st, another is due June 1st, but I'm getting a head start.

I wish I still lived in California.

Later days.

Song of the Day: "A Brother's Lament" by Let's Lumos!

Film of the Day: Stardust (2007). Such a great underrated movie. I need to read the book, though.

My Chemicals and Me Are Going Places

I've decided that I become extremely stressed when I'm asleep. Weird, I know, but it's totally true. Whenever I have something on my mind, not necessarily worrying me a lot, but maybe just barely, it tends to grow in importance in my mind while I'm asleep and I dream about it.

Like crazy dreams that completely magnify the simplicity of unfinished homework assignments.

This has happened to me more than once, but I noticed it fully for the first time this morning when I felt really unsettled about my drawings for school when I felt fine about them when I went to bed last night.

I just thought this was weird. So I blogged about it, naturally.

Song of the Day: "Sleepyhead" by The Reason

Band of the Day: The Like

Show of the Day: Skins. 'nuff said.