Everything That You Hoped To Say

A new month. March. Six months until my birthday.

I spent about an hour talking on the phone with Alex today. It was nice, he said we should do it more often. Especially since he's going to Afghanistan in six or so weeks.

I don't like talking on the phone with very many people. Mainly just Alex, Jenna, and Erin.

And Tyler. But I can't talk to Tyler on the phone, just letters these days.

I finished reading Whale Talk by Chris Crutcher.

Described in one word? Shocking.

But good, don't get me wrong. I don't think anyone under 14 should read it though. I'll let you know more of what I thought of it on my tumblr. It should be up at some point later tonight.

I just checked out Al Capone Does My Shirts from the Dixie State library, so I'll be reading that, plus another book, though I'm not sure which one yet, for this week.

My choices are between The Mysterious Benedict Society and the Prisoner's Dilemma (the third book of the series) by Trenton Lee Stewart, The City of Ember by Jeanne DuPrau, or Boy Meets Boy by David Levithan.

What do you think? Choose one for me and let me know.

I don't have much else happening.

Though I did sleep through my Spanish test on Thursday. But my professor is awesome and let me make it up later that day without consequence.

So never mind.

Later days.

Song of the Day: "Sweet and Low" by Augustana. I was supposed to see them when I saw the Hush Sound in 2008, but the lead singer had just gotten in a car accident so they didn't play :/ But the Hush Sound and One Republic were amazing.

Film of the Day: Lymelife (2008). A good movie with a great cast. Though a little bit depressing, it's worth the watch.

Knowin Nothin In Life But To Be Legit

I've just made a decision that I'm going to stick with, regardless of the fact that I just thought of it at 1:30am.

I'm not going to record my album until I get a steel string acoustic guitar.

Right now, all I've got is the nylon classical acoustic that I've had since I was 13. I love the sound of it, but it isn't right for what I want. It might be right for some of the guitar parts in my songs, but otherwise...nope. I want my songs to sound good, not mediocre, so I'm going to have to sacrifice the wait of buying a new (well, probably used actually) instrument in order to get what I want, though I am extremely impatient.

I've also decided to write some new songs for a regular (muggle music) album. I would like to be a one man band for that as well, so I'll have to start thinking of a good band name. I was thinking about all the names of local bands from Ventura, California that I used to see a lot and was laughing at a few of them. Mostly just at Sexual Jedi haha. Sexual Jedi was one of the first bands I saw on the first night I went to the Underground, along with Aejis and Grady. That was great night. But I digress.

I'll continue thinking about names.

Songs of the Day: "Hell" by Tegan and Sara, and "Cold Hands (Warm Heart)" by Brendan Benson

Well Nevermind, Nevermind

Today was a little bit crazy.

Two birthday parties = 12 five year olds for 3 hours.

+3 hours of 20 other children of various ages.

I got really tired.

I love my job though. Kids are the greatest.

Unless they have effing cell phones at the age of 8, then I'm just annoyed at society.

I'm really behind on my TV shows. Not Grey's and House or anything, but the good shows: Dexter, Weeds, Big Love. The shows with no boundaries. I'm on season 4 of The L Word right now (insane show, by the way, but so addicting and full of good drama). I got halfway through Weeds season 5 while it was actually on the air, but never finished it. Dexter...has cancer. Now but really, I need to see season 4 as soon as humanly possible. And I need to still watch season 3 of Big Love even though it's been on DVD for like 4 months.

I've decided I wont be able to afford Wrockstock this year, unless by some miracle I can whip up an additional job. NO ONE IS HIRING. It's absolutely ridiculous.

I'm really bummed that I wont be able to go. I was excited to be able to meet fellow wrockers and hear awesome music. Next year, I guess.

I'm so tired.

Later days.

Song of the Day: "Help I'm Alive" by Metric

Film of the Day: I can't think of one. What are your favorite films?

Our Reckless Abandon

Guernica

So we're drawing Picasso in my drawing class right now.

My teacher talks way too much, it's quite distracting, and everything he say is somewhat redundant. I just pop my head phones in my ears and drift off to art land.

I kept Andrew Bird's "A Nervous Tic Motion of the Head to the Left" on repeat.

Right now I need to be doing 17 pages of my Spanish workbook that is due tomorrow and I put off until the last minute. As always.

Today in class Senior Everet (the funniest teacher ever, by the way) was going over a worksheet we did in class and he asked for volunteers to read off their answers.

Silence. All except for that awkward feeling and slight sounds of people moving around uncomfortably to look around and see who will raise their hand first.

I love that moment there. That little bit of awkward flowing through the air. I kind of laugh on the inside when it happens, I'm not sure why. Maybe because of the fact that people are so self-conscious around their peers that they wont even raise their hand to answer a question for the fear of maybe getting it wrong.

Anyway, he called on me, and I like, kind of quietly laughed about the whole situation and looked at him and I could tell he was thinking what I was thinking: People are funny things.

"Why are we alive?
And here's how they replied
You're what happens when two substances collide
And by all accounts you really should have died"

- from A Nervous Tick Motion of the Head to the Left

Later days.

Song of the Day: "Everything's Just Wonderful" by Lily Allen. May I just say that Lily Allen is kind of amazing and brilliant? I love her music, despite her excessive use of the f-word haha. By the way, if you click on the song you can get it from me.

Film of the Day: Once (2006). Glen Hansard was originally just going to make a promo video for his solo music career, but it turned into a feature film with a storyline and Academy Award winning soundtrack. SO GOOD.

Come On and Catch My Disease

[edit] I'd just like to start out by saying that today is filled with nostalgia thanks to music that I've been importing to my computer today that I've had since middle school. Por ejemplo, right now, I'm listening to New Found Glory, thinking, "how did I ever like listening to these guys?" and then thinking, "why do I like listening to them now?"

Oh, the many mysteries of the universe. I hope that one day they can perhaps be solved.

People rate people. It's just a fact. Everybody does it. I do it all the time, I people watch and rate (as creeper-ish as that sounds). But you know what I mean. You see a person, or a group of people, and you subconsciously rate them in your mind. I'm generally either intimidated by people, or else I can see myself being buddies with them, all based upon what I see in a matter of minutes, or seconds, even. I know this is completely inaccurate (in most cases, anyway) and ridiculously prejudice in so many ways, but it happens.

Alex (Mr. Marine Man, aka my best friend in the entire world) and I were once at a St. Bonnaventure/Oaks Christian football game a few years back (also, this is the day that Will Smith and his kids walked past me, and I was so absolutely shocked by his presence that I literally just stood there and stared as he passed by) and we stood at the edge of the sidewalk surrounding the field and watched the people that scurried by.

I realize in retrospect that this is extremely weird, but it's really just an extended version of what most people subconsciously do every single day, like I said.

This was just sort of on my mind today. I was thinking about people that I'd love to be friends with, but I'm intimidated by. When this happens, I always think about how they're probably nothing like I picture them to be in my mind, and that the view from a distance is often obscured in many ways.

Hmm. Did I mention I'm pulling an all-nighter? Yeah, it's 5:46 am. There's no effing way I'm going to sleep now and getting up for Spanish in 3 hours. That doesn't work for me. I'd much rather push through then collapse on my bed at 10:57 after getting home from class.

I truly hope everyone else's days are brilliant though!

Later days.

Song of the Day: "All Downhill From Here" by New Found Glory

Film of the Day: Everybody's Fine (2009). It's Drew Barrymore's birthday! And it was a good movie. Nothing I've ever seen De Niro do, really. I always think of him more as Travis or Vito, back in the when he was absolutely gorgeous. But I digress.

Hold Nothing Back, Like You've Nothing To Lose

I thought I was supposed to read Whale Talk by Chris Crutcher this week for my YA Lit class. But no, I'm supposed to read Does My Head Look Big In This by Randa Abdel-Fattah. Now I have to find a copy of that novel and read it by Tuesday afternoon. Crap.

In other news, I saw The Lightning Thief today. I was extremely disappointed from the get go. BUT it was a good movie. As just a movie. Not a film adaptation of a book. Worth seeing, but don't get your hopes up, I guess. I also saw Valentine's Day last weekend, which was better than I expected. 3 out of 5, I'd say.

Since I'm on the topic of movies, I watched Life As A House this week. I had heard of it but didn't really know what it was all about. Before I rented it I noticed that it starred Hayden Christensen, which almost made me pass it by, but the fact that it also starred Kevin Kline made me stick to my decision. I'm so glad I did. Christensen may have been a less than convincing Darth Vader - and let's just face it, Jumper was a horrible movie acting wise - but he can pull off depressed and angry teenager well enough. The overall story was good, the acting was pretty great the majority of the time, and it was very heartfelt. I like movies that make me...feel, so to speak. That's why I love foreign films, they don't hold back. They throw it all at you at once so that you are so overcome by the intensity and emotions flowing through the film that it makes you feel something. Something you can't get from a good ol' American made film. But I digress. A lot.

Life As A House was different from the norm, but not so different as, say, A Very Long Engagement.

Now I feel like I'm giving it too much praise...I don't know. It was just a good movie in my opinion haha.

I wrote and recorded a rap the other day. I think I'm going to make a music video for it at some point. Some point soon though because it kind of goes with the video I posted yesterday.

I'm never able to segue into an ending to my posts very well. So...

Later days.

Song of the Day: "The Road To Jericho Is Lined With Starving People" by This Providence

Film of the Day: City Of God (2002). So good. So so good. It blows me away every single time I see it, and I've seen it at least 5 times. Because of this movie I want to name one of my future children Benny. True story. And speaking of, this film is actually based on a true story, which is even more unbelievable.

Albeit Condescending

Just finished New York, I Love You. I like the way it's put together more than Paris, Je T'aime, but I think I like them both equally considering all the content in each one.

May favorite stories in New York so far are the relationships between the dancer dad and his daughter (written and directed by Natalie Portman...She's kind of one of my favorite people), and the two old people that are walking down the street arguing. They make me smile :]

And the actors in this film are all quite good.

Love.

Love is a funny thing.

It's a beautiful thing. Frustrating and wonderful and exciting. I can't speak from personal experience, but from a distance, this is what I see.

I want to go to New York now.

Alas, I must go to my drawing class, taught my a very annoying and talkative, though very nice, instructor.

Later days.

Song of the Day: "Caring Is Creepy" by The Shins. Not my favorite Shins song overall, but definitely some of my favorite lyrics of all time.

Film of the Day: Well, I was hoping that would be obvious.