TJ and Sally...true love at it's..um...best?

I deleted my last post. I didn't like reading it. If I don't like reading what I write, who will? I generally enjoy re-reading my blogs, but it was just dull, and altogether lame.

I just finished another song for my album. I love it.

It's quite interesting to see myself evolve with my song writing. Not so much with the actual lyrics, but with the sound of the music, the sound of the words and how they are sung. I think I'm improving anyway.

I know I've said it before, but wizard rock is such a blessing to me. It has become such a huge part of my life in such a short amount of time, and I'm so grateful for it. I don't care if no one listens to it (okay, that's a complete lie. It would be nice if at least like, three people enjoyed it, just for self-esteem purposes), I'm just so happy that I get to create it.

I was explaining to Erin (my best friend, and possibly my future cousin-in-law, depending on how things work out when Tyler gets home in late 2011 from his mission in Honduras) that I've never had so much joy in writing songs. I've been writing crappy song lyrics and poems since the seventh grade, but now I'm actually putting legitimate effort (as opposed to...illegitimate? HA. The word "illegitimate" always makes me think of Thomas Jefferson and Sally Hemings and all their illegitimate slave children. But I digress.) into my songs. I just feel happy when I write now. It's lovely :]

On the subject of Tyler, or Elder Wedemeyer, rather, I love reading his weekly emails to everyone. He only gets 30 minutes every Tuesday to write emails, but he does it so well! Tyler has always had a way with words that I could never compare my writing with. He uses such great imagery, it's amazing. I miss his amazingness.

I talked to Jenna (Tyler's sister) last night. Despite her being somewhat under the influence, we had a good (but giggly) heart to heart.

I miss my cousins. They are truly my brother and sister, not my cousins.

And now, I end abruptly, seeing as it's almost 1am and I have extreme issues getting up for my 10am class as it is.

Later days.

Song of the Day: "Broken Stereo" by Sean Fournier. Download his album for free!! It's quite catchy.

I Am Moving. Again.

Not far, just about 8 miles north of where I am now.

BUT

it feels like it's in the middle of nowhere, out in the boondocks. I'm not generally a fan of boondocks unless they have something to do with saints, so naturally, I'm not a fan of this.

The neighborhood is far out of the way of anything besides a random WalMart super store and Chevron gas station.

I mean, if you just go over the hill to the south, you hop on the freeway and you're in Washington/St. George again, but it still feels so distant from everything.

This is going to be the 13th time I've moved during my life.

I'm a city person. I like suburbs and big building and almost-car-accidents in busy intersections.

I don't like rural. Unless I'm deliberately going camping or something.

Ugh. I'm done venting.

I've decided that I'm applying to Watkins down in Nashville. And...some other schools. I don't know which ones though. Ideas??

Later days.

Song of the Day: "Walking With A Ghost" by Tegan and Sara. Tegan and Sara are one of those bands that I have been listening to way longer than everyone else has. Their music was a huge part of my life once upon a time, and will always be as such.

uhh...TITLE.

This is going to be quick because I just realized I have class in 13 minutes. Hoorah.

I don't think I'm going to apply to Rhode Island School of design anymore. I might apply for it next year, though. I might still apply to Watkins down in Nashville. But who knows? Maybe I'll end up at Utah Valley University up in Provo, UT with the rest of my Ventura Mormons who basically will all be in northern Utah next fall.

To make a long story short, I have no idea what's next in my life after this summer, and I really don't mind. I'm just grateful that I have an awesome family that still let's me live in the basement :]

In other news, I have to postpone my reading of 13 Little Blue Envelopes for the time being and read Black Potatoes: The Story of the Great Irish Famine for my YA Lit class. I have no clue what is in store me when I read that. I just like learning about Irish history, and I'm tired of reading Holocaust history books, so I choose it.

And now I have 4 minutes to get to class. I'm always late, so I'm really not too worried about it.

Later days.

Song of the Day: "Why Don't You" by Plastic Operator

Film of the Day: Zombieland (2009). It came out on DVD last week. And, I mean...it's Zombieland. If you've yet to see it, and you aren't grossed out by zombies, I suggest you see it because it's actually pretty well done for a zombie movie.

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I'm not applying to RISD. It's been decided.

Also, I'm making a design for the ALL CAPS tshirt contest. The idea sketch that I did looks awesome, but my final draft of it isn't turning out quite as well as I'd hoped.

In other news, Grey's Anatomy has succeeded once again in making me cry while watching this week's episode. It has yet to fail. Someday...someday.

And I'm adding American Idol to my list of Things That I Don't Like That Everyone Else Seems To.

Oh, AND, I'm getting way better at ceramics. This week was a GREAT week for ceramics, which is nice, because I've been having a lot of bad ceramics days lately. I still can't decide whether or not I want it to be my concentration or not yet though. We'll see...

Adding To The List

Things I Don't Like That Everyone Else Seems To:

Lost

Johnny Cash

The Phantom Tollbooth

-Coheed and Cambria

-Smosh

The Anticipation's Got Me Glued

Today is a good day.

I went to Church, actually wanting to go to Church for the first time in a long time. I'm so glad I did.

We sang my favorite hymn, "Be Still My Soul". I always want to sing it but it's never one of the songs in the program on Sundays. Today it was. Then I just loved being around everyone at Church because everyone was so happy, and all seemed to be having a good day.

Everything just felt...in place. Everything was right.

Other than that, my life has been pretty unchanging as of late. I'm enjoying Catching Fire so far, and I'm pretty proud of myself that I'm sticking with my goal to read all these books. Last year, I probably read about 6-8 full books, if that. Doing what I'm doing now, reading so much, reminds me of how much I really do love to read. It's a wonderful feeling :]

I also made a Tumblr to keep track of all the books I read and kind of tell others whether or not I liked them or not. Just click here or on the book cover over to the right there to check that out.

I wrote another letter to Tyler today. I love writing to him. I like having someone to write to on a regular basis, especially when it's with someone who's only means of communication with me is by letter.

I don't have much of an update on my wrock album. Not much progression in recording since the room I generally recorded in is still covered in soot from the cat incident. But I have been in the process of writing more songs, so there could possibly be more songs than I first anticipated going onto the album. So that's exciting.

I played some indoor soccer yesterday and now I have bruises all over my left leg. Just my left. I don't even know..

..this is where I end.

Later days.

Songs of the Day: "The Luckiest" by Ben Folds and "Sleeping Bear, Sault Saint Marie" by Sufjan Stevens.

Film of the Day: Planet 51 (2009)

Fly Down To Mexico

After reading both Hayley and PJ's blogs about fourteen-year-old selves, I thought about how I was at age fourteen.

Then I remembered: we don't talk about that. And by we, I mean I. And by talk I mean think.

Fourteen was no fun, I'll tell you that much. For some weird reason, I was completely and utterly depressed, to the point where I turned to things that weren't generally good for me (or legal, I might add) to get away from the world around me. I started hanging out with the wrong people, hoping they could help me escape my mind, but I was just a sad little teenager.

Thank God for Garden State. And I'm completely serious. That movie - mostly the soundtrack - changed my life. I remember the day perfectly:

I didn't have a 2nd period class, and I was sitting against one of the big gray cement pillars on the outskirts of the quad at Foothill Technology High School. I was on the grass. I remember it being quite a nice day, and the grass seeming to be more green than usual. I was listening to my CD player (old school, I know) and had just put in the Garden State soundtrack. The very first song on the album is "Don't Panic" by Coldplay.

"We live in a beautiful world,

Yeah we do, yeah we do

We live in a beautiful world"

And it hit me like a ton of effing bricks. BE HAPPY YOU IDIOT. I looked around, felt the sun on my skin, felt warm inside for the first time in a long time...and smiled. I remember smiling.

The bell rang just as this happened, and I watched the entirety of the school walk out of classes all around me, the whole time only hearing this song. Everything was in slow motion, as though I was discovering my sight for the first time. I felt new. And best of all, happy.

From that point on, I have been an extremely optimistic person, always cheering up others, doing my best to keep love and happiness alive in the hearts of everyone around me. Anyone who is friends with me knows this. Even those who are no longer my friends or never even considered me a friend to begin with. Whether it be a car ride to a safe place or a present for no reason to put a smile on your face, I'm always there for the people I care about. I never want anyone to be in the place that my fourteen-year-old self was in once upon a time.

Song of the Day: "Don't Panic" by Coldplay

Film of the Day: Garden State (2004)

PS - If anyone wants me to make them a mix CD, let me know. I feel like I can communicate with people through music better than most anything else, and I like spreading good music around.

:]

Later days.

You Think You Think You're Pretty Smart

Today I made a cake. A very large cake. And it was delicious. Well, is still I suppose, we haven't eaten the whole thing yet.

I also aced my first Spanish test of the semester.

In my drawing class right now, we are supposed to be using pencils and graphite sticks to draw a suit of armor. I have to literally force myself to push on and keep going while drawing this. IT IS BORING. I like drawing people. Or wrenches. I like drawing wrenches. Don't ask.

Anyway, I have to build my portfolio, so the more drawings the better, even if they are of suits of armor.

In ceramics, one of my pots broke. I was kind of mad, but then I remembered my motto for ceramics: Don't get attached. It's hard not to, but it's necessary. Things break. Things don't work out. That is life, unfortunately.

Speaking of my portfolio, does anyone have any suggestions for art projects? I need new ideas. More breadth. More variety. I have to show these schools what I can do, and in order to do such I must challenge myself. So suggestions are quite welcome :]

I have four songs recorded for my wrock album so far. I have five to go. I've decided to make some big changes to one of those five songs, so it might take even longer than I'd like, but I'm sure the outcome will be rewarding and make up for time lost.

I feel as though I've been focusing far too much on lyrics (which is completely understandable, considering wizard rock is a completely lyrically based genre) and have lost the more musical side of things. Por ejemplo, making sure it sounds good. Like, good, good. Why would I want to make something that not even I would listen to? Exactly. So I'll work on that for the remaining songs.

But for now, later days.

Band of the Day: The Brobecks

Film of the Day: Son of Rambo (2007)