I failed horribly at BEDA. I'm just not the blogger I used to be. I have nothing to motivate me.
I was thinking just yesterday how involved I was in the internet community just a year ago. More specifically, YouTube. Now, I don't even watch vlogbrothers anymore. I only watch disneykid1 and communitychannel. Random. I barely even post my own videos/music anymore. To be honest, I've just lost myself. I feel as though I should be worried, but I'm not. I literally have no plans on what I want to do with myself, or with my life, but I am indifferent at this point. It could be because I am listening to Fleet Foxes and am entranced and don't care about anything right now. Maybe.
I don't feel that I have a purpose. Not right now, anyway.
Though I do have some news. It's not set in stone quite yet, but I might be moving out of the country for the next year to nanny. If I like it enough after the year, I might just continue nannying for a while while I figure out what school I am going to go to eventually. Utah State has crossed my mind. But so have some of the Art Institutes on the east coast. For film. It's my dream, and though not completely ideal...still obtainable. I don't like being told I can't do something I want to do. I want to do so much. Oh, so much.
I've also thought about pursuing music. But not the same acoustic stuff I've always done. I like making beats and loops, so I may turn out something with that. Or not. I don't know. I don;t know when I will know. Not now.
This is too long. Later days.
Song of the day: "Blue Ridge Mountains" by Fleet Foxes